Oh So L-O-V-E-L-Y

Are quotes half-meant like jokes? Hindi ito tongue twister a!

2007-01-22T17:31:00.000-08:00

There's this guy who sent me a quote last week. Actually he's no ordinary guy because he's a friend. A best friend for me. I don't know what his quote meant and worse, if he really meant that quote. Baka wala lang pala yon para sa kanya. You know, just for the sake of forwarding messages just to get rid of them.

Whatever it is he wants to say, sana malaman ko na..He even asked me when my graduation will be. I don't know if he has plans of being there in the crowd. Nilait pa nga niya na ang cheap daw ng St. Scho. Bakit daw hindi man lang PICC. Anyway, he's always like that. Insulting me in ways he could.

Or did he send the quote kasi nakwento ko sa kanya ung tungkol sa amin ni...Pero hindi naman niya alam ang buong kwento..Best friend ko siya pero there are things I can't tell him. May mas bestfriend pa ako kesa sa kanya..He doesn't know how I feel towards the other. Would he care to know? Actually pareho lang naman silang patay na patay don sa gusto nilang girl, katulad ko, patay na patay kay Monmon. Pero past is past na. Ang naisip ko lang, paano kung nalaman niya ung tungkol dun sa girl niya, would he still be interested in me or he'd go back to her? Ang pinakaayoko sa lahat, ung nagpaparamdam tapos bigla lang naman mawawala. As in no-no un sa akin. It's either you stay or you go. If you won't stay then don't drop by. Tapos Period.

Siguro kaya maraming nasasawi sa love kasi marami ang hindi kayang mag-stay. Sana maging pantay na ang ratio ng men to women para monogamous na lahat. As in one is to one. Walang betrayals para wala ding heartaches. At syempre wala ding mga pamilyang nasisira dahil sa mga third parties na ganyan. Masaya siguro kung ganon then the world can have peace!

Going back to this guy...okay naman siya sa akin..matagal ko na rin naman siyang kilala..all he has to do is ask..pero ayoko rin namang magmadali. Ayoko ring magkaboyfriend para lang masabi na hindi na ako single at masabi din ng iba na may tangang na-inlove sa akin..

If he comes, I hope that he's my last just as I'm hoping that I'm his, too..para happily ever after!!! :)

maging happy kaya ang birthday ko?

2007-01-22T16:58:00.000-08:00

IN 7 days, it'll be my birthday..

I don't know why i kept on counting...I have this deal with god na kapag hindi niya ko grineet sa birthday ko, kakalimutan ko na talaga siya..Everything's just so unfair..Alam niya rin yon pero kahit sang anggulo mo tignan, sa part ko talaga siya napaka-unfair..baka nga talagang i do not deserve him...and he does not deserve me either!!!

Looking at the brighter side, i know i'm happy..kahit wala siya okay lang kasi i have my friends with me.. high school friends, college friends, The Scholastican family, Salinlahi co-dancers, co-interns, best friends, classmates, org friends, and of course family...kahit walang boyfriends (yuck, plural??? haha pero hindi ako two-timer a! one after the other lang, JOKE!!!), solve na ko! Totoo naman yung sinabi ko e. Since nagbreak kami ni Bryan, mas lalong dumami ang friends ko tsaka siyempre mas lumakas ang women empowerment ng mga sawi sa pag-ibig...pero we're not man haters a! Mas dumami rin ang blessings ni god. Siguro sabi ni god, "Finally you saw the light." hahahha, ang sama..kung sakaling nagsisisi man siya na he let me go, too late na, ayoko na e..I've loved him much when we were still a couple kaya siguro wala nang natira ngayon..at hindi niya rin ako masisisi dahil in the first place, wala siyang karapatan na sisihin ako! aba, aba, aba!!!! mahiya siya sa balat niya a!!! mas marami akong kakampi kesa sa kanya...hehehehhe...kung mai-eenumerate ko lang ang mga pangalan ng mga taong natuwa sa break up namin at nagalit sa kanya nang sagad to the bones!!!...kapal!!! promise, hindi ako bitter. i'm just rejoicing at his fault of letting me go.

HE LOST ME BUT I NEVER LOST ANYTHING. (naks, hanep tong one-liner ko no?!? palakpak naman diyan, hehehe)

Anyway back to my birthday thingy...hanggang ngayon meron pang nagkakamali na 31 ang birthday ko. 30 PO!!!!! JANUARY 30, 1986 po! hay naku...grrr.. ang unfair a! kasi ako pag naggi-greet ako ng mga taong may birthday palaging tama ung date! memorize ko pa by heart kung sinong may birthday sa araw na yon! san ka pa?

na-realize ko, habang tumatanda ako wala na ng nagbibigay ng gift! except sa boyfriend! e ang problema, pati un wala nga ako e, pano na ung birthday ko? hindi ako nananawagan na regaluhan nyo ako a..naisip ko lang un..tatanong nyo, what about the family? hay naku ang isasagot ng nanay ko, "Dapat ikaw na nga ang nagbibigay diyan e, malapit ka nang magtrabaho.." IN fairness naman, may point din si mader..

I believe it's time to pay for all the kindness she has shown..and my family, of course..

Really, i'm looking forward to my birthday!!! (obvious ba, inulilt ko na naman siya!)

Valentine's? hindi. Graduation? oo. Work? medyo oo na hindi. Marriage? siguro years from now. Having children? kinakabahan ako, a year after the matrimony na lang.

Death? hindi. Hindi pa ako ready. Marami pa akong gustong gawin, mga taong dapat pasalamatan, mga lugar na dapat puntahan, mga bagay na dapat matutunan...Tsaka mabait naman ako e...di ba gusto naman ni Lord ng good people on earth? : )

Dearest guardian angel, please guide me..

Hahaha

2007-01-22T16:32:00.000-08:00

Si Lei katabi ko kumakain ng tuna sandwich and kwek kwek.. Bad hair day daw siya, at feeling daw niya ballerina siya dahil sa baby bangs niya... hahahaha!!!!

Field trip na bukas sa Lake Caliraya pero hindi ako excited. May tatlong articles kasing deadline e pagkabalik ng Manila...hay...bakit ba kasi naimbento ang feature and technical writing class e! dapat pag fourth year, thesis na lang at wala ng subjects.. Ang gastos na nga ng thesis at obra, dagdag pa ung mga out of town trips na yan.. ni wala ata akong naipon sa Tweety bank ko. pati barya wala kong nasasave..yuck i'm so poor..hahahahaha!!!

Despite that, i look forward to graduation naman. Sana may surprise! but i don't want to expect a gift from my family.. okay na sa akin ung andon sila sa field at panoorin akong rumampa (ano to model?) sa stage..maiyak kayo.. Pero kung may magdadala ng flowers to greet me and congratulate me, mas ok!!! ahahahhahaa

Sana dumating na si Mr. Right kung sino man siya..In fairness, i'm proud na nagawa kong tuparin ung promise ko sa sarili ko - na hindi ako magboboyfriend hanggang graduation. (grabe ang lakas talaga ng trauma) maniwala kayo o sa hindi, may ganyan akong ka-eklatan, hehehe...pano kung andyan na pala sa tabi ko pero hindi ko lang mapansin kasi hirap na kong ma-in love??? wahhhhhhhhhh, baka kailangan ko na ng professional help..wag naman sana...

hopefully, ma-achieve ko ang gusto kong ma-achieve sa graduation..i believe it'll be a good gift to my family especially to my mom..

and if ever i had a boyfriend with me on that day, i know he'd be proud..that that girl on stage is his girl..awww...ang sad...hay..kasi wala naman akong boyfriend..maybe i just need to wake up and stop myself from imagining happy endings..

P.S. at siguro, hindi naman siya darating sa graduation ko..ano bang pakialam niya..madami siyang ginagawa at malakas naman ang pakiramdam ko na i'm not part of his plans..."gusto nga daw muna niyang ayusin ang life niya.."

i'm so sick of it..my god, i deserve good men!!!

2006-06-04T21:43:00.000-07:00

Natatakot akong mag-isa
alam mo yon, hindi ba?
Ngunit nagawa mo pa ring
ipagpalit ako sa iba...

Natatakot akong pumikit at maiglip
kasi ikaw ang laman ng aking panaginip...
Pero siguro talagang ganon
dahil ikaw lang din naman ang aking iniisip...

Natatakot akong gumising sa umaga
dahil alam kong wala ka na...
Kung pwede lang sana'y kunin na ko ni Lord
nang ang paghihirap ko'y matapos na...

Ngayong nag-iisa na lang ako
sabihin mo, saan ako mag-uumpisa?

2006-01-06T15:15:00.000-08:00

Nothing so special with this poem I'll write,

because no word can ever express

the feelings I hold deep inside.

Nothing so melodic with this song I'll sing,

because no lyric can ever express

the loneliness it might bring.

Nothing so funky with this beat I'll dance,

because no move can ever express

the number of times I gave you a chance.

Nothing special.

Nothing melodic.

Nothing funky.

Nothing really.

Nothing.

2006-01-03T16:35:00.000-08:00

"I love you."
These were the last words you would always say before hanging up the phone.
In the bed I lie thinking about those words you said. Questions linger in my mind as I reminisce the happiness and the pain I felt when you said those words I've always loved to hear...
How could you love me when you won't even risk the chance of courting me?
How could you tell me those words when you're keeping yourself away from me?
How could you just talk to me yet you can't tell me how much you really feel?
How could you wake up each day without knowing that there's somebody like me who cares for you and loves you more than you can imagine?
...And how could you let me fall for you when all along your feelings for me have already died out?
"Just tell me why before I leave you and say goodbye..", this I said, while slowly drifting away into the peaceful night.

Rainbow

2005-12-25T10:04:00.000-08:00

Color my world RED, and I'll tell you everything that's unsaid.

Color my world ORANGE, and I'll tell you the things you need to change.

Color my world YELLOW, and I'll make you forget your sorrow.

Color my world GREEN, and I'll tell you how much you mean.

Color my world BLUE, and I'll be with you and stick like glue.

Color my world INDIGO, and I'll come with you wherever you want to go.

Color my world VIOLET, and I'll make sure it's me you won't forget.

Poems Only For You

2005-12-14T17:42:00.000-08:00

I think you've inspired me to make these poems

Because I'm sitting here, waiting for you to come home.

I think you've inspired me to write these phrases

Because I think saying how much you mean to me is endless.

I think you've inspired me to choose these words

Because they make you feel special and not make you feel bored.

So I wrote all of these poems only for you;

I hope you loved them as I have loved you!

Soulmates

2005-12-10T16:15:00.000-08:00

Soulmates

Whenever we are apart,

longing for you breaks my heart.

But knowing you'll keep in touch with me,

that second thought keeps me happy.

Whenever you are far from me,

my heart then isn't filled with glee.

But knowing that you always remember me,

that second thought makes me happy.

And whenever we are at each other's sides,

all my worries and doubts are taken aside.

And knowing we're there for each other,

there'll be no more second thoughts forever...

Do you know what your name means?

2005-12-08T15:10:00.000-08:00

B - rings happiness to my life
R - emembers me wherever you go
Y - earns for my pure love
A - lways a shoulder to cry on
N - ever broke a promise...

I Love You

2005-12-05T10:45:00.000-08:00

I Love You

I always feel very special; thank you for the

100% LOVE and care you give me.

YOU are the only one who can make me happy

Because of your loving comfort, corny jokes and sweet thoughts

Remembering the first time I saw you,

You're just a stranger with such a cutie face.

And falling for you - this I didn't expect

No matter what, now and forever,

I LOVE YOU...

What Love Is

2005-12-01T08:45:00.000-08:00

Love is indeed a sacrifice to make,
because I'm here all alone, sitting by the lake.
Love is indeed a mystery difficult to understand,
because I'm longing for your warm open hands.
Love is indeed patient enough,
because I'm here; sacrificing, waiting and

understanding you for all of my life...

Sana

2005-11-23T09:56:00.000-08:00

Kung makakasama ka lang sana,

Mawawala na ang lahat ng problema.

Kung makakasama ka lang sana,

Mapapawi na ang pagod na aking nadarama.

Kung makakasama ka lang sana,

Higit na sasaya ang bawat umaga.

Kung makakasama ka lang sana,

Wala na akong mahihiling pang iba...